The Wobble

I woke up one day. In waking up, I realized that my struggle of the day continued from the day before – and the day before that. Instead of beginning the day with the normal round of negative defensiveness, I began with wanting to understand the reason for my struggle. While lying in the warmth of bed (luxury), my thoughts turned to gratitude and the joy of being warm, comfortable, and surround by my loved ones. In that, I realized any struggle paled in comparison.

Through the lack of negativity and the overwhelming positivity, I recognized that the struggle was mine and based on perceptions of what I – or someone else – should be doing/being/behaving. The judgment that poured off me was startling and I felt the weight being removed from my shoulders in a physical feeling like one I had only known once before in my lifetime. (Another story.) Suffice it to say, I paid attention. A voice said to me you are just in the middle of learning.

Recognizing that I have something to learn in the experience is the wobble. It is our reluctance to own up to the wobble that keeps us in the wobble. Once you acknowledge your own wobble, you can begin to understand it and how you are benefitting from it. Believe me, you are benefitting from the wobble and, while it may not feel that way, the more positive the psychology, the better your outcome. It is my goal with this blog to help you in the wobble with information. This blog is my own personal experience as a professional wobbler resistor. It is not intended for medical or psychological treatment or guidance. It is my own view point. Take it or leave it.